brown eyed annie

Hey so here's an update on how I've been living my life lately.

For a while I was just going through the days desperately waiting for someone to tell me something that I hadn't heard before. I guess I fervently search for advice when things get tough, this time I was looking for anyone to tell me what I should do with my life.

As you all know, a mission was my 100% plan all throughout high school. I was all for it. I didn't have any specific college plans because I would figure it out after the 18 months. I just go with the flow. It worries people.

Allison Brown, great friend, love her (come home from China). She spent several days trying to convince me to text this one guy. She said that we would be the most perfect couple. Finally on March 23 I did.

"Hi hi, this is Kiera Harmon"

"Hey hey, this is Michael Mallory"

(I had to scroll through so many texts to get this info.)

We went to a movie (Cinderella) that week and I fell immediately in love.

I have felt so strongly about him ever since.

Being with Michael has made the mission feel so irrelevant to my plans.

In my head I kept saying to myself that he will wait for me if it is meant to be, that's also what people kept telling me.

Yeah, I believe that would be true. I just hated the thought of saying goodbye to him and I felt extremely sick to my stomach when it came to my mind.

I also kept denying the thought that I should stay when I would think about all of the people that were so excited for me to go on my mission. I didn't want to disappoint. It took me awhile to realize that I can't go on my mission for other people. I wouldn't be happy.

Now I know that the ones that love me and care about me will support me through and through with my decision.

So...

after much thought,

I have decided to stay.

I have made my decision independently and I feel confident in it.

Plans change, God works in mysterious ways.

Thank you to the people that helped me and held my hand through all of my indecisiveness.

I don't have very clear plans for my future right now, all I know is that I want Mikey by my side.

I freakin love him.

Also,

I've started to listen to Taylor Swift (if you know me, that's a major breakthrough).

I cry every time someone says the name "Jen".